aLi'sWorld
A little bit about me and what I'm up to.
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Rummaging Through my Thoughts
(Growing up I had a plan. A time line for my life. Pretty much a typical thing for a girl. I'm still very stuck on that time line. As i got older, like any other person, life teaches you things. If not life itself, life introduces you to people who then teach you things. My time line didn't change. Things just got rearranged. I still have the same dreams. The same goals. I allowed my fears and lief to get in my way. So for now I sit here complaining to myself.)
On my way to work I stopped by one of the five Seven-Elevens, I bought my breakfast, my lunch, and this months Glamour magazine. It didn't help my mood. Sigh. (I wont mention any of the pretty things or the pretty people.) One of the columns: What's Your American Dream?" *Said in my French accent.* Someone is Houston has the exact same one I do. "My American dream is to travel the world as if it were my playground. I want to see and experience everything I possibly can. I wasn't put here to be stuck in a cubicle day after day." Sigh. The only thing that stops that dream for me is the not having enough money part.
I think have come to terms on a thing or two not happening for me. I don't think that is a good thing, but I have learned to be ok with that.
Like that one song says, "...it may seem to you that I am in a place where I am losing the direction of my life...". I think I lost my way, back in '06. Im still lost, but now I am admitting to myself that I am lost. (Feels kinda nice not to hear "Lost In the Sauce", LOL.)
Right at this moment, it feels as though, the only way to get back on track, "is to be financially sound, happy and healthy"; all the same time though. I don't think I'm anywhere near being financially sound. I only blame myself. (Like on many other things.)I'm healthy, unless you're counting the fact that my glasses need a new Rx.
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Up To Speed
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
'A Sound Mind is A Sound Body'
My mind is always going, always in chaos. It runs even faster when all around me it's quiet.
Monday, June 22, 2009
Empty. Lost. Alone.
Anywho, i've stopped watching the Ghost Hunter episodes. It's too scary by myself.
I dont know how 'D' does it. Although she is at home with family. I did opt to stay here in Georgia, far away from family and friends.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Boredom Meets Frustration
It's 15 til 3am and I'm just now startin to get sleepy. I feel so alone with out the hubby. I'm getting depressed. I feel like I'm the only person in this town. The only sound is the tv that can't keep my attention anymore. I dunno what to do to keep me busy anymore. The laundry is done. I miss him. The worst part is that it's only been two days. I'm gettin anxious already. I dunno how imma do it when deployment comes. I'm going crazy with loneliness already.
Today i woke up a few minutes shy of 1pm. Sigh. Now my sleep schedule is all screwed up. I miss the hubby. It's getting dark outside. There's another storm coming in. I've been in my pajamas since I got up. Cant wait til we are financially set so i can keep myself busy. I want to start quilting. I've been inspired.
Friday, April 24, 2009
C'est La Vie
Anyway, since the move a whole lot has happened. Some good, some bad. That's Life.
First, we got us a really nice apartment. We have our own place again. He gathered a couple of guys from the barracks to help us move in all our stuff. When everybody left, we were all alone just the two of us. We looked around and the feeling was awesome. The place was ours. Imagine what it feels like to buy your own house. Maybe one day. Another thing that felt like an accomplishment was the morning our sectional couch arrived. We bought them ourselves. Cash money. No financing. Lol.
One thing that he is especially proud of is that he can support us on his income alone. I'm still going to get a job though. I was recently hired to work at Starbucks. My parents got a great laugh out of that one. I had to take a drug test before they could tell me when would be my first day on the job. So I called yesterday to see if they got the results for my drug test. (I'm anxious to start working). They told me the drug test came back positive. "Wait, What?!"
Apparently mistakes do happen, but the results never made it to Starbucks. So...it shows them positive, unfortunately I have to wait another three days for the correct results to get to them.
Today is Friday, we were invited to go out to a bar. I'm not sure I wanna go, but I most likely will.
The hubby is home. Gotta go serve lunch.